RAWRgasm's blog

0:6 To Those Ghey Downraters


Get The FUCK over yourselves.
For whatever reason you're down-rating everyone, it's pathetic.
You're a sad, pathetic little person (or persons).
Seriously? WTF.
It's a site for socializing and making friends.
Down-rating everyone isn't going to make you any friends.
Therefore, stop trying.
PATHETIC.
That's it.
Just Pathetic.




4:39 Commitmentphobia

After lots of hard thought and conversation I have realized that the cause of my commitmentphobia probably lies in my oh so endearing past.





All I wanted was a long-term relationship with someone I loved who would love me back.

I loved with all my heart and tried so hard but all of my someone's always left.

And I think all of the rejection has left me incapable of a relationship.

Maybe I'm just terrified and want to be certain that when I do get into a relationship, it's not going to end.

And since THAT could never happen.... Well, I guess I'm a bit screwed.






Also, there's all the self-esteem issues and the issues with my mentality...

If I can't love myself, how can anyone else?

See, I like who I am as a person.

I feel that I'm very true to myself and very real.

However, there's always going to be the past in me where it's just so hard to actually and fully love myself.

I find so many flaws that OBVIOUSLY because I see them, everyone else must too.





I'm doomed!