crazy_dreamer

About Me: well, i get hurt easy, but it doesn't show, i keep it all inside, on the outside I may appear heartless and cruel, on the inside, i'm so fragile, I won't show it when I'm sad, I have my own way dealing with my sadness, I act a lil' crazy sometimes, but only around the people I really trust, I don't trust people easenly, they have to urn my trust, I'm not a girl who freaks when my hair isn't right or when I break a nail, it's not the end of the world! I don't spend hours In the bathroom, it's kinda boring, and I have better things to do, I'll never pose half naked at pictures just to get attention, you'll never see me waring pink, I luv to watch the sun go down, and feeling the wind blow on my face, while i'm walking at the beach... I'm silent around people i don't know, I'm crazy around people I feel good with, I don't believe in god, I do believe in faith and destiny, I never walk under ladders, and I cross my fingers when I hope something will happen... It's hard to see how i really feel, i don't like spiders, but I would never kill one, I talk to my self a lot, maybe it's 'cuz I have a f*cked up mind, I talk to animals, don't worry, they don't talk back to me, i sleep with a teddy bear, so what? I You have to do a lot to make me mad, I forgive 2 fast, But if u really hurt me, you'll notice I'm different, I don't have a lot of friends, guess that's 'cuz I have to go out more, and I don't talk to people easenly, I always think they'll laugh with me or something ... I lock myself away from the world a lot, I'm alone a lot, kinda got used to it, but when i'm all alone I do feel something is missing in my life ... I always think the worst, I'm a really nervous all of the time, it's really annoying, I luv it when I can make people laugh, even when my smiles are Fake, I lose myself In music, I get shivers down my spine when I hear ville valo sing, I luv history, myths, legends, I care more about other people then about myself, i can't imagine a life without my family, if i didn't have them, i wouldn't be here anymore, I stay strong for them, and for the people I love, I hate it when people stab me in the back, I hate it more when they make fals promisses, people shouldn't make promisses that they can't keep, I luv to sing when I feel like it, but no one ever heared me sing before ... I hate the past, I wish the "backspace button" worked in real life, maybe then, he would still be with me, u still meen the world to me boy! feels like I'll never get over! I don't know what I want to do when I quit school, I think 2 much, I cry fast, but only when I'm in my room, so no one can see it ... I keep my problems for my own, guess I don't want to bother people... sometimes I yell real loud, It helps me calm down in a way... I bite my nails when i'm nervous, bad habbit, but I can't help it, i also scratch of my nailpollish, I love the outside, woods, forrests, I luv sleeping outside, I luv it when I hear the birds sing when I wake up, I sleep with My curtans open, I luv looking at the stars at night, I luv roses ... I believe in aliëns and ghosts, I used to believe in love, untill... he went out of my life, he's still the only one I want...  I luv fairytales... I'm not ur perfect little barbie doll, and I don't want to be! ready reading all this sh*t? wow, i never tought any one would read this! I meen, maybe that they would start and then say pffff, this sux or something, ya know? well, thanks for the attention I guess ...